American Horror Story: Asylum

so right now i'm crazy about this serial, American Horror Story: Asylum.

it's the 2nd season of American Horror Story, but the setting now is totally different from the previous one.
the first is great. so many secrets, surprises and twists.
but this one is even greater! you love the first? you would love this. you never watch the first before? you can watch this (because it has no correlation with the first season) and immediately love it.
the cast is still the same! glad we still have Jessica Lange, Zachary Quinto, and even Dylan McDermott!! :D
it's weird knowing the creator of this serial is the same creator of Glee. lol

anyway, in this second season... no more haunted house.
welcome to Briarcliff! the sickest mansion of the insanes.
here you'll find Sister Jude and Sister Mary Eunice, Bloody Face the serial killer, and others.

for you who don't mind bloody scene, and love intrigues, tricks, and twist, and of course horror/thriller, i recommend this serial.
and another thing i love from this serial is the script. the choice of words is so clever, especially Sister Jude's dialogue. i love it.

rate: 8.5/10

Pixel

hi everyone.
about the title... no, we're not going to talk about pixelated pics or what

so my mom adopted this very puppy from my neighbor next door.
their dog just gave birth to four puppies two months ago, and by now those puppies are ready to give.
and luckily we got one
check it out baby!

such eyes... stop it, you~ :$

welcome to the club, Pixel! <3 we loveeee youuu! (and how come my mom gave that Pixel name to this cute creature?... no problem tho)

and so this morning i took pics from both of my dog.
heart-taking ones! ><
if only i could make a video of how Pixel run... :')

be nice to your brother, Danzel!

you're so cute, little brother!

Y U SO SMALL?!

let's play, brother!

*melting*

oh Godddddd such cuteness does exist *headrolling*

if freedom is real

hey everyone

soooo long since my last post.

nah. it's my third week of 3rd term and it's veryyy hectic here.
well, currently i handle several committees and organization. and you know what
i dont know what to prioritize anymore, these tasks are demanding so much attention from me.
this week i skipped two classes just to take some rest and longer sleep, because i went home very late and i felt so exhausted. i didn't do Cost Accounting homework because i really don't have time. study? nope at all. i successfully failed at Financial Accounting quiz last Monday and Marketing Management quiz earlier this morning.
i am sorry mom, dad, :( i am really ashamed right now. my grades used to be number one priority in my campus life, but i think these activities are just too much for me to handle. moreover, i didn't feel that happiness and joy i used to have in previous committees i had joined. i am really devastated right now. :(
but well, it's not my style to break commitments with things i've committed to. i decide to finish these committees till the end. well... i dont break commitments, but doing things half-assedly is the consequence :|

and yeah, i have this misery. again.
you know, in all committees i joined the design division.
honestly i feel so enough with this design and photoshop thingy. i begin to hate it. i am bored with it.
well i have idealism in my design. i love graphic design because i love seeing beautiful and gorgeous things, from humans, scenery, paintings, photographs, even sculptures and carvings. i love them and the least i could do to contribute in this world's beauty is to make graphic design. every ugly designs i've ever made, i take it as one of my learning history, proof that i am trying to be better.
and now, being forced to do all those design... nowadays i feel like all i made is just junks. my design isn't as free as it was. it isn't exciting as it was. it doesn't make me proud as it was. and moreover, i didn't enjoy making those things :'''(((

is it too much to ask if i want someone to understand this feeling of hatred and devastation?

sweet escape

“He who does not travel does not know the value of men.” – Moorish proverb

hey fellas! ah, after sitting for hours in car my ass is still aching until now *stretch stretch*

here i am, just came back from 6-days trip to Central Java.

i went to Semarang, Solo, Jogjakarta, and Dieng plateau (in Wonosobo)

i went there with my parents, brother, sister, my uncle's family, my grandma, and my auntie.

real great time i had there! 

Semarang is the first destination of our trip. we didnt really go to particular objects/sites, my parents just want us to know what Semarang is really like. and it is so surprising that Semarang is a cool city! what i like the most is, Semarang is really clean although it's pretty big. We arrived there on Sunday night and we ate at Lombok Ijo. the foods are pretty good and the prices are surprisingly cheap, haha.

the next day, my sister got this idea to go to Lawang Sewu museum, and so we go there.

this museum was once used by Netherlander to hold Indonesians captive. there is even a dungeon there! :O they said the dungeon is used to torture Indonesians and kill them. errww :S

overview from the top

*L-R* auntie - me - mom - dad - lilsis - nathan - benru - lilbro - granny1 - granny2 - uncle - uncle's wife - rainer

a thousand doors!

after Semarang, we went to Solo. this is the most amazing city in my trip! the town is very clean, the pedestrian is so big that you can even ride bicycle there, and it is not very crowded unlike here in Jakarta.

we sleep at Rumah Turi Inn. it is quite cheap and the room is very good and homey (i like it so much!) although we experienced some difficulty to get there (due to the location).

and the next day we went to the house of one of my family's relatives (Bibi Ida, according to my mom) and she suggested us to go to Sangiran, Early Man's site. it's some kind of museum about prehistoric men and stuffs. and so we got there...

souvenir's corner

after Sangiran, we decided to go to Keraton.

the tour guide showed us many sacred things used by the royal family centuries ago and their family tree

Just when we're about to finished the keraton tour, i realized that mom and dad was not with us anymore, and i asked my auntie where they are. auntie said that they had forgotten that my little sister was left in the car! so they rushed to the car as soon as they realized that hahahaha lol

with my CUTE cousins

the street in royal family residence

that's it in Solo... gonna miss it a lot! :''((

and now we're heading to Jogjakarta! *dancing*
yeah, Jogjakarta is pretty mainstream nowadays, and it's getting more crowded than the last time i visited it. i wish we could stay in Solo longer but what can i say against mom's words? *rolling eyes* anyway Jogjakarta is still fun though ;D
the first site we visited is Candi Mendut. that temple is small, unlike Borobudur or Prambanan.

there's no me... *sobs*

after that we decided to go to Candi Borobudur hahaha thats because my cousins had never been there. well it's obviously more amazing than Mendut before......and also more crowded, hmm. but the view from top is amazing :D
and apparently there's a new rule here. if you wanna enter the temple, you should wear a sarung batik. i am glad that the government already make a move to socialize batik :) i love batik!

the crowd

welcome!

at least i've tried to take the scenery of the blue sky....

family!

me, bro, dad

after all temple visits.....ta-da! Malioboro! time to shop-shop!
Malioboro is a long street full of street vendors. most of them sells batik clothes and souvenirs, but there are other stores and restaurants too.
my mom, auntie, and grandma bought batik clothes like crazy here... well no wonder because the price is so cheap
i even got a pair of pajamas for only IDR 25k, hahaha
my bro and sis had them tattooed temporarily
dad and mom bought so many bakpia :O
so sad we didnt get a chance to ride becak here :(

Malioboro street and its crowd

becak

and the next morning we continued our trip to Dieng plateau in Wonosobo.
we took a long, long way to get up there. and here, we visit Telaga Warna lake and Candi Arjuna
Telaga Warna is awesome! the color of the surface is beautiful. i wonder if other lakes are like this :O

blue lake

and Candi Arjuna consists of four small temples. :D

and you don't have any idea how scary the way down from Dieng is. gosh! hahahaha

that's it for now
i love those towns, i wish i got another chance to visit them again someday :)

4th Students Research Days

"The reward is the journey itself." - Chinese Proverb


last week (yeah, a bit too late, thanks to the lack of time i got) was a blast. mostly because of SRD was being held :D

nah. SRD (Students Research Days) is an internal committee held by my faculty. this year is its fourth, and i join this committee as the coordinator of Publication, Documentation, and Design division :D

4th SRD!

my pubdoc team consists of Chika & Gracia as well. i love working with them so much! :D <3 and i miss them already :(

pubdoc! *L-R: me, Gracia, Chika*

i love this committee so much... this committee also feels like a family to me.

i miss SRD stand where we hang out there to have chit-chats, to study together, to wait for the next class, to spend the break time, to buy fund raising division's ayam kremes, and so on.

i miss all the meetings when we laugh like crazy *thanks to logistic division LOL*

i miss the D-days when we take so much photos together

i miss when i should stay all night long to make all designs

i miss all the memories i had here

and of course, i miss all of my friends here, i miss them so much.

too bad this committee is over :""""(

a moment in UPMA room

after closing

and because this committee is the first time i am chosen to be the coordinator, i learned a lot of things here, like how to communicate with all of your team members, how to get things done on time, how to balance your time between all your routines, and so on...

by the way, SRD is the committee where i enjoy designing publication tools the most :') i love SRD's publication tools colors <3

actually one ballyhoo - the left one - is designed by Chika, but am too lazy to remove it, hehe

for my pubdoc team

i am really glad to have the chance to work with them!

i love the time we spent together, i really hope someday i'll work with them again

thank youuuu guyyyssss <3 I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH *kisses*

and this is the closing video uploaded by Gracia! check it out guys <3 muchos gracias Graciaa for uploading it! :*


well, every hello is always followed by a goodbye, isn't it?
i really love working with all of you, guys. so much joy and laugh :)

world, you got me questioning

a good evening today.

it's June! the month when finally, the long-awaited three-months holiday starts. happy holiday everyone!

anyway i still worry about what might fill my time in these frustrating three months and what i can do to pay for my holiday hedonism cost, haha. i've been asking if there's any of my family or their friends who wants a part-timer, but the answers are all NO... aww.

and i accept orders of graphic design jobs... so call me if you have one! you know, i ever thought of taking this graphic-design business to the next level, but i think i am not ready to maintain it. besides i still lack of experience (and even the skill, i can use only Photoshop. not even Illustrator or Corel Draw) :( but for simple event posters, ballyhoos, greeting/birthday invitation cards, and so on, believe me i can do that... just ask me for my portfolio! :) just contact me via email, twitter, or facebook! ;)

well, talk about that later.
i have particular things to write today.

i just finished reading this book, Supernova by Dee.
nah, i am not that genius, not even that smart to fully understand what this book is about. it talks about some physics-combined-with-philosophy stuffs to begin with. but it is also about romance, a beautiful and sad one...


and it got me thinking about something.

it's about why people do things. believe things. and what, after (and if) those things are not going as planned? if those break your heart? and worse... if your whole world ruin apart as those things don't satisfy your needs and wants? or even, if you realize that those things are just your unreachable fantasy?

why do people do things? is it because they love it? because they are simply told by someone to do it? or because they earn money for it?
if they don't love it, how can they bear the boredom of doing it? or even the hatred?

why do people believe particular things? for example, their God? or how they believe that their girl/boyfriend is their lifetime soulmate?

and yes. what if your heart breaks because of those things you do, you believe, you love, or even you give your life into? can you bear the pain? can you bear the satisfaction of people who say 'i told you', 'see', 'i warned you before', 'this is because you didn't listen to me', or even 'yes, feel that!' ?

just saying. no - just wandering.

don't ask why

You're funny

You laugh a lot, too

You're lovable

You make me smile every time i see you around

You light my day

You make me laugh every time we talk

If anyone ever ask, why you

I won't ever say those words

Cause they will never know how fast my heart beats when you're around

Sometimes i ask myself, why you

And when I remember how time flies when I'm with you

That question vanishes in the air,

And all I can think about is when will we meet again

No, I am not comfortable with who I am when I am with you

Cause, really

I like you so much that I try hard to be nice to you

I like you for who you are, but somehow I can't be who I really am

Guess what, maybe I like you that much

"You can be as cold as the winter weather
But I don't care as long as we're together"

- Perfect Two by Auburn

i don't wanna sink with you

have been working with some people recently. and now i want to type what i got in mind

i don't like people who...

thinks that their opinion are the best. these people makes me sick. especially when in fact their opinion is not good. they force people to accept their ideas, and voila! they got all things messed up. good. and they told everyone to clean those mess. just go to Atlantic sea, scumbag.

even if their opinion are quite good, i still appreciate those who still want to listen to others', and provide reasonable arguments why people should accept their ideas with friendly way of speaking.

aaaaalllllways mumble. holy cow, these people are wasting their time, and mine too, by complaining how hard their life is, how annoying people are, how difficult their tasks are, blablabla without actually doing something about those things.

haters. they suck. they are just showing their jealousy towards people they are badmouthing. besides, what good things they get from hating people without reasons? nuts.

have this excuse: 'you are better than me.' i see that as: 'oh so it's normal if you do mistakes. and i have to do your part. and i always have to help you.' don't do their job properly. don't have any initiative. don't have any intention to help you when you are in trouble, but always ask for help if they are having problems. having these people in your team is just a huge pain in the ass.

it's just, i never had it coming.

hello fellas

been through things lately... *sigh* and now am suffering from severe mood swing

first of all, last weekend was very refreshing :) <3 at Thursday evening i met Regina at Jakarta and we went to Sunter Mall just to watch Woman in Black hahaha. it's outta nowhere (i mean, have you ever heard of that place?) and we really struggled to go there but it was fuuun :)) Regina screamed so loud that i promise i won't ever watch horror movies with her anymore hahahaha *kiddin Re!* the day after, we went to church and bought a dress for Kezia's birthday gift. Yes, Kezia held a birthday dinner that day! but there was a slight quarreling between us before the dinner... sorry Kezia for the inconvenience, but at the end the night was fun right? once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETHEART! *hugs&kisses*

ps: my deepest apology Kez i really thought your birthday was April 5.........sorry for not greeting you at the very day :(((( gosh how could i forgot your birthday date -_-

and the most important is, i was glad that i had the chance to meet my bests Regina, Kezia, & Priska. am so missing them! see you soon xx

and then say hell-o to college again 
midterm scores arent really good... financial math, two middle fingers up...
committee thingy... ah can i not remember that for a while? :( </3
SRD really boosts my daily mood though, got some friendly fellas there... and yesterday we held team building, we went karaoke-ing, pretty fun and refreshing :) thank you all of SRD members! *hugs*
and yaaay i have a new crush hahaha i know it sounds cheesy but it slightly motivates me to go to campus just to see him around :p

and talk about motivation, i am so in a need of that thing right now
because recently a thing brought me down. and i cant easily cheer myself up. well i just wish i can get over it soon... :(

:'( 


don't love too much, because at the end it will hurt you so much.

my goodness!

just some shots of my puppy i took on Saturday

and by the way my mood is getting better nowadays :D:D

even the darkest night is always followed by a shiny morning! :D can't believe i had such horrible days few weeks ago

tomorrow is the last day of midterm! yaaay gonna play with some pals on weekend *dancing*

wooof (ciao)! <3

silence of the straydog

have you ever felt that moment

when your mood is totally zero

when everything went bad, not as good as you thought they will be

when everything you do always fails

when you feel like you are not meant to do what you want / should do

when no one is there to support you

when you feel so alone that it hurts so bad, really bad

when you want your mom to call, but even your mom had fallen asleep

when you feel like carrying the weight of the world yet nobody wants to help - no, they don't even wanna look at you

when no matter how loud you cry, how loud you scream, in your own room. no one hears you

when you're too afraid to tell someone about your problem bcs you're afraid they don't wanna listen to you

when you feel like nothing..................................

when you feel like you're just a burden to this big big earth

edge of madness

lately i am depressed

i have sooooo many homeworks *which is unexpected by me at the beginning of term*

and yet i join campus organization and committee.

i think i can handle my routines well

but it turns out that it's not as good as i think it'll be

i'm afraid that my GPA won't be good this term

and the worst thing is...............

i am afraid that i begin to lose my best friends, thanks to the lack of time i had

if only if-onlys can make things better :(


still, wish me the best.

if you dare to say hell

so i am accepted as a staff in Communication and Information Bureau at BEM FE UI 2012

and basically i should be happy. some new friends with skills! wooah what could make me more excited.

here's the pic of my new friends :D

*top pic, L - R: Evan, Olivia, Chika, me, Delta, Esti*

and yes, i can assume that my 2012's gonna be hectic.

hope i can still have some fun :')

and i hope i can make my grades higher than first term

but recently i have problems with my social life -- no?

perhaps it's just these disgusting negative thoughts of mine

have you ever felt like you don't belong anywhere? that's what exactly i feel

and maybe this is what my year's gonna be

busy routines on campus

and bad campus (social) life :(

and at times like this, i...

i just miss my high school friends a lot

sorry guys for not having my time for you all

sorry for keeping myself busy :" i'm so sorry

sorry for being so selfish

but i thank you who are always there to listen to all my yearnings and mumblings, while i barely do the same :(

2012, whatever you'll be. i'm sure i will learn so much thing from you :)

God, bless this year.

KOMPeK 14

first of all, what a long long time since my last post, no? so many things i wanna type..
but this time it's about KOMPeK (Kompetisi Ekonomi) 14


it is an event in my campus, in Faculty of Economics - University of Indonesia
it's about economics competition. there are four branches of competition - debate, quiz, paper, and business challenge
it was held on Feb 13 - 16, 2012. this year is its fourteenth.


and i am one of the staff of Publication, Documentation, and Design division
my job is designing some publication tools, approaching some media partners to help our advertising, and making documentation of this event


here's a bookmark i've designed:

i love this committee. i love it very much
some of you may think like 'what's so special about economics competition? it sounds even boring'
but HELL NO. this is the most joyful committee i've ever joined so far, and i doubt it if i may find another committee that can replace KOMPeK's joy.
you won't understand what i'm saying... you should try yourself.
so sad now that KOMPeK 14 is already ended :'( but i won't forget the experience and friends i had here: Oliv, Juva, Aldo, Tesa, Rizki, Maria, Fiona, Fey <3<3
i love our togetherness. i love how we face hectic days together. i love every memories i had here, whether it's good or not. i love, love this committee, especially my lovely division :')


here's my superb partners:

*L - R : Rizki, Oliv, me, Tesa, Juva, Aldo

i forgot to take photos with my division coordinator & vice coordinators, Fey, Fiona, and Maria :((

till we meet again, KOMPeK ! <3

The Hunger Games

currently i'm reading this book called The Hunger Games, which is written by Suzanne Collins
this book is the first book of the trilogy. the second is Catching Fire, and the third is Mockingjay

i don't know why but i like this book so much (or maybe i'm overrated it) which makes me write about this book in my blog
have you ever watched The Condemned? the concept is like that, about some people let to kill each other till there's only one survivor
but no no it's much better that The Condemned hahaa... it's too gross. The Hunger Games ftw!
i bet you girls will like this book :))
and on March the film's gonna be released. kyaa can't wait, it's gonna be awesome :O

till we meet again

actually this happened on January 28, 2012
 there we were -- Victoria, Olivia, and me -- at Kedai Kita.
i love Kedai Kita... foods taste uberyummy there, you should go there if you go to Bogor

*left to right: Olivia, Victoria, me

we were celebrating Vicky's enrollment into her college (finally ya Vic :D i'm happy for you!)

but sadly, it's in Germany, so we considered this a farewell party as well
she said she won't go home until she finished her some kinda foundation school there,
and it will take more than a year
well it's her choice after all. i should be happy for her right?
Olivia and i made a souvenir for her... take a look! for me it's cute :3 i think i will make one for me too

we've been friends since tenth grade, and i remember you back then, you're so funny with your unique Soroako-ish accent.

i still regret that three of us didn't spend more time together :(
i wish you all the best Vic.
i wish you health, prosperity, happiness, and so on... i wish good things will happen to you there.
i wish you'll get good friends who can guide and make you a better person there, Vic.
and God, please protect my friend there :)

Toi toi toi, Victoria Doora! xoxo 

i love colors!

so today, i feed my curiosity on... coloring! yeah i kinda like this thing
basically it's about adding or changing colors on your photo


and today i color my photos using adobe photoshop cs3.
it can be done easily with photoscape, but i don't have that application
and with photoshop it's more flexible to change the colors all you want.
i just use tutors on the internet! so i'm not that smart hahaha but whatever
here's some examples of what i've tried today

*) i resized the pictures for some reasons, sorry, you can email me or contact me for the large-sized ones

The Original Pic

Bluish

Spiffied

 

Off-colored

 

Orange

if you wanna try this coloring thingy you can open this

and hope you like it :)