hey everyone
soooo long since my last post.
nah. it's my third week of 3rd term and it's veryyy hectic here.
well, currently i handle several committees and organization. and you know what
i dont know what to prioritize anymore, these tasks are demanding so much attention from me.
this week i skipped two classes just to take some rest and longer sleep, because i went home very late and i felt so exhausted. i didn't do Cost Accounting homework because i really don't have time. study? nope at all. i successfully failed at Financial Accounting quiz last Monday and Marketing Management quiz earlier this morning.
i am sorry mom, dad, :( i am really ashamed right now. my grades used to be number one priority in my campus life, but i think these activities are just too much for me to handle. moreover, i didn't feel that happiness and joy i used to have in previous committees i had joined. i am really devastated right now. :(
but well, it's not my style to break commitments with things i've committed to. i decide to finish these committees till the end. well... i dont break commitments, but doing things half-assedly is the consequence :|
and yeah, i have this misery. again.
you know, in all committees i joined the design division.
honestly i feel so enough with this design and photoshop thingy. i begin to hate it. i am bored with it.
well i have idealism in my design. i love graphic design because i love seeing beautiful and gorgeous things, from humans, scenery, paintings, photographs, even sculptures and carvings. i love them and the least i could do to contribute in this world's beauty is to make graphic design. every ugly designs i've ever made, i take it as one of my learning history, proof that i am trying to be better.
and now, being forced to do all those design... nowadays i feel like all i made is just junks. my design isn't as free as it was. it isn't exciting as it was. it doesn't make me proud as it was. and moreover, i didn't enjoy making those things :'''(((
is it too much to ask if i want someone to understand this feeling of hatred and devastation?
