Tuesday, March 20, 2012

silence of the straydog

have you ever felt that moment


when your mood is totally zero
when everything went bad, not as good as you thought they will be
when everything you do always fails
when you feel like you are not meant to do what you want / should do
when no one is there to support you
when you feel so alone that it hurts so bad, really bad
when you want your mom to call, but even your mom had fallen asleep
when you feel like carrying the weight of the world yet nobody wants to help - no, they don't even wanna look at you
when no matter how loud you cry, how loud you scream, in your own room. no one hears you
when you're too afraid to tell someone about your problem bcs you're afraid they don't wanna listen to you

when you feel like nothing..................................
when you feel like you're just a burden to this big big earth

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

edge of madness

lately i am depressed
i have sooooo many homeworks *which is unexpected by me at the beginning of term*
and yet i join campus organization and committee.
i think i can handle my routines well
but it turns out that it's not as good as i think it'll be
i'm afraid that my GPA won't be good this term
and the worst thing is...............
i am afraid that i begin to lose my best friends, thanks to the lack of time i had

if only if-onlys can make things better :(


still, wish me the best.